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[04 Oct 2005|11:22pm] |
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Some thing Good Needs to Happen in my Life...Like ASAP
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| Being Lazy...Again |
[22 Sep 2005|11:16pm] |
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I Still Need to do my laundry & pack & be ready for tommorrow & it's past 11..
I wanted to read before bed too
Now I just want to be in Bed by 1
If you look up Lazy or Procrastination in the dictionary you'd probably see a picture of me
I'm so excited to go to Lexington tommorrow, A Nice little Beach House for the weekend. With Peanut & J-Bird & Woogie & Pig whenever they decide to get there, but I don't even care. I hope everyone has a good time of course, glad those people are going to be there with me, yes... but I'm going for me. I need to relax & stop being so crazy...because honestly I am Crazy, & I can't wait to see my Grammy. I just want to Drink & Dance & Wear a Hoodie, & Act Stupid & Walk on the Beach & Just..BE, Away
I Don't even care if it rains
I Need to go to school...Make up first I'm going to go for..well esthetics..but you get what I'm saying
Then after that, hair & hopefully I can score a job @ a sweet make up counter while I'm going for hair, Honestly I'd be Happier doing that than working @ this damn doctors office. I'm so over this repetitive, 9-5, conformist shit. Thankful for it, don't get me wrong...but over it.
I wanna do what I WANNA DO
And going to school will give me something to do, I won't have as much time to sit & think about everything I want, & don't have & need & blah blah blah
Therefore, making myself Less Crazy
I'm just ready....& If I'm feeling ambitious about something, I really need to act on it
I Need to get my hair done, My Roots are driving me Bonkers
Thank The Lord I get paid Wednesday, because I am pissing away everything I have this weekend
but as stated before...Don't Care :)
I Love that it rained all day today...
I just wish I would have been home in my bed curled up with Dolly, a cup of coffee, & a Book
I Need a New Car
And I Seriously want to take Piano Lessons
Ghost Whisperer Premieres Tommorrow, Taping It, So Excited <3
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| Go to Bed |
[05 Sep 2005|10:45pm] |
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Why am I awake?
I know, I know it's only almost 11, but everynight I sware I'm going to bed early & I'm gunna get up @ 6 & have time to relax & get ready & stop for coffee & be at work on time & everyday it basically never happens. Blast!
I Hate work
I Miss the Studio, I Miss that place sooo soo soo soo much
Reality Bitees the Big One
Any who, I've been so weird lately. Moody & Weird & Just Yucky
It Varies..eh, hormones I suppose, the curse of being a Crazy Fucking Female
I'm sad this weekend is over, Long Weekends are Never really Long Enough..ya know?
Fun times though, LOTS of Relaxing, & the Big Party @ Peanut's & those are always a Blast cuz her family is crazy nuts & I Love them! Our friends even showed up later on, which made me wish I wasn't Waxed @ 6pm that evening because by the time they got there I could pretty much barely stand up! Sorry Guys, but your faces made this drunk girl so happy :) <3
I Proceeded to get lit again the next night,pretty much by myself & then forced Alexis to smoke a million cigarettes with me & listen to my life revelations about wanting to play the piano & so on..
Ridiculous
I haven't updated this in ages it seems, & it even feels weird typing an entry
My B got engaged on Friday, I cried a little. I was so happy for her! I knew her & Michael were gunna get married, but he suprised her so bad & it was so sweet & he got down on one knee & everything. She was screaming on the phone it was so cute! I Love her, I am just so Happy & I can't wait to see her ring!!!!! :)
Another friend on the at least soon to be married list, Craziness
Speaking of Weddings I got the few pics I took @ Beanie's Wedding Back..Yay
And you know that is going to lead to me posting pics for you to see...so go Look :)
There's Lots....Beware!! :):)
( Bean's Wedding, Lex's on Sat & Some Randoms <3 )
Ok, Now That I've wasted a significant amount of time...I'm gunna give this sleep thing a go
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| For my Wife Banessa <3 |
[22 Aug 2005|11:23pm] |
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I was tagged by my wife Banessa, so I must obey her Gorgeous self <3<3
- List 10 things that bring you a moment of joy.(in no particular order)
- Tag 5 friends to do the same.
1.) My Puppy! Dolly Lucille is my Sunshine. That Little Dog Has Healed my Heart in Big Ways!! <3
2.) Music & Shows my world revolves around it
3.) My Friends, I know a serious accomplilation of AMAZING people!!!!!
4.) Coffee with Southern Butter Pecan Cream & Cigarettes
5.) My Grandma
6.) Eating Dinner with my Family
7.) The videos on New Found Glory's website
8.) Compliments
9.) Sitting around with a big group of people I Love & Laughing
10.) Cuddling, it's just my favorite
And I would tag people, but i forgot how to make the names show up the right way, so anyone that wants to do this..just should :)
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| Bolooki Cookie |
[17 Aug 2005|12:27am] |
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I Want to Move to Chicago More than Anything Ever
I Want to Marry Cyrus Bolooki, So I Need him to Break Up With His Girlfriend
I Want to Get a New Job & Go to Cosmo School, & Be the Most Bomb Ass Hair & Make Up Hussy in Chicago
I Want a New Car
I Want to Never Miss Any Shows
I Want to Save Money
I Want My Peanut, My Angie, My Amy Lynn, My B & My C all in the same place with me @ the same time
I Want to Write, Like it's Easy, Like I Used too
I Want to Quit Being so Jealous & Wah Wah-ey
I Want to Make More Time For People, & Be a Better Friend
I Want a few more hours in the Day
I Want to Quit Smoking
I Want to Sing
I Want to Pillate EveryDay
I Want Another Puppy so Dolly Lu can have a Sister, & I Want a Louis Vutiion Carrying Case For Them
I Want to Be Ambitious & Responsible, & Not So Lazy & Selfish
Want, Want, Want, Want is all I ever Do
Do, Do, Do, Do I what I need to Want
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| The Big Double 2's |
[27 Jun 2005|10:19pm] |
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Exactly 22 years ago today..I graced the world with my prescence :)
I'm glad so many people are just as glad that I've been gracing it ever since
I Got More Presents & Good Wishes & Cards & Phone Calls than I even expected!
The Cutest Cards Ever, The Purse I wanted, Shoes I wanted, Money$$, Yellow Daisies, a Gaudy Daisy Pin & Earrings, Copies of some of Lovey's movies that I've been dying to buy/find but couldn't!
Everything was thoughtful, & that's what I Love the most.
Presents aren't even necessary though...because the people in my life are so Amazing!
I even got spoiled at work by my girls there, with signs & a little cake, & lip gloss & lotions! So Cute!
I just feel So Special, & Grateful....
Despite the ups & downs & heres & theres & the everythings in between in my life
I'm so glad to be Me
Exactly Who I am
Exactly Where I am
With Exactly What I Have
Exactly in this Moment!
Sometimes I wish I could bottle the way I feel on my Birthday, & pull it out when I need a pick me up!
Thanks Guys...<3
We'll see what 22 has in store for me & Cross your fingers it's everything I Need
Or At Least a Few of the Things :)
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| Open Your Eyes & See Me Leaving |
[15 Jun 2005|11:25pm] |
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"I must keep in mind
That reality can be painful if neglected too long"
A New & Improved Me in Prouduction, Coming Soon to a Theatre Near You
& this time anything less than a Box Office Hit is Unacceptable
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| FINALLY!!!!!!!! |
[13 Jun 2005|11:34pm] |
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SUSAN E IS FINALLY COMING TO ME AUGUST 9th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She is FINALLY doing a Detroit Stop with this new Book!!!!!!!
I cannot wait to embrace my cheesy romance hero!
I will weep tears of joy!
I Love that Woman
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| NFG = Life |
[07 Apr 2005|12:12am] |
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Dolly Lost a Tooth today, my babydog is growing up!!!!!!!
Tonight & Last Nights NFG shows were fucking Amazing like Nobodys business!
All bands should take lessons from NFG about how to be!
They basically played every single song I could have dreamed of hearing
Peanut found two pics on the floor right by her foot...necklaces folks
Someone took my hat off my head, but I didn't have time to care because I was too busy fucking being too much metal for one hand
I Love Alyssa
I cannot fucking WAIT until Chicago
Me & My Peanut are the Queens of the handclap
And today we were dressed in true Peanut & Prin fashion
"Everyone Loves a Blonde" "Brunettes Do it Better"
I have rekindled my Love for Slurpees in a Big Way
I'm sad just thinking that after this tour NFG is going away to make a record...
Please why can't I just get to my drummer crush, yes it's a real crush leave me alone
It's on with their merch guy in Chick a GO, Oh Yeah
Steve Looker is MORE than just a guitar tech folks
And Now I go pass out.....Happy <3
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| Well Well |
[03 Apr 2005|10:35pm] |
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I Can't Fucking wait until this weeekend!
but before I jump too ahead of myself I can't Fucking Wait until Tuesday & Wednesday!
3 NFG shows this week, the weekend one being in Chicago with my Peanut & My Pretty!
And to top it off instead of the Sunday NFG show in Chicago we are going back to Grand Rapids & seeing Plain White T's! Whaaat! I'm geeked for Life!
I haven't been to a show in like 6 months, The fact that I'm still alive is amazing, plus it's NFG which is life, & did I mention that I have a huge crush on Cyrus still & would be ok with seeing him again?? :) Stranger things have happened ok, leave me alone! I can be cute & charming ;)
Plus I just got my hair done & I'm super obsessed with it this time, so that ups my hotness level ya know?
Being at work this week is going to be like the longest most dragged out thing ever!
Went Bridesmaid dress shopping with Beanie again & found a dress! It's so simple & pretty & I just can't believe that Bean is getting married this summer, where does the time go??? It doesn't seem like it was that long ago that we were playing My Little Ponies! When did we become grown ups?
Joey's birthday was yesterday...Happy Birthday again Woogie! He had himself a bitchin lil bash, & it was fun! Beer & Fun People, what's not to Love???
I have to loose weight
Dolly is so Big Now!! OK, so she won't ever really be SO Big, but she is about 4 pounds & when I brought her home she was 28oz!! This Friday she will be 5 months old! My Baby is growing up, & getting cuter by the day it's absurd! I can't wait to get pictures of her in her new Daisy Sundress to show off!! <3
Well I suppose I should turn in for the night, so I can wake up refreshed to kick off my week of wonderfulness, plus Phil of the Future is on, Oh Yeah Baby!!!!!!! <3
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| Happy Love Day! |
[19 Feb 2005|01:13am] |
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The Most Beautiful Woman in the History of Life People!
I wanna like 90x 90 it & put it on my wall *LOL*
Her show may have gotten dropped again *Kills ABC*, but at least I got a new Maxim out of it because of too quick promotion :)
Hooray for Today!
Loves it <3<3<3<3
EDIT:: A NEW LIFEHOUSE ALBUM MARCH 22ND! Ahhhhhhhhh <3<3<3
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| WTF Brother |
[01 Feb 2005|11:10pm] |
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Like how I have abandoned all my online things...I suck
Not that there is anything going on in my life to write about.
My 90 days was up @ work today, I can't believe I've been there for 90 days.
I can't believe that Rayma has been gone for over 96 days.
I cried at work the morning of her birthday, the 27th, we were both born on the 27th in months that start with J. I felt kind of silly crying at work & I was trying to hide in the kitchen, but MaryAnne found me, and hugged me & said everything I needed to hear. I work with some Fab ladies, I got Lucky there. I couldn't help crying though, one of those times you just have no control. ya know?
It still hurts, it hurts me so much
I wanted to call Rayma & tell her Happy Birthday..but I can't
& that's one of those times that it really sinks in, & becomes real
I can't call my childhood Best Friend on her 22nd birthday because she's not here
Life is so strange
& where does all this time go exactly
Sometimes I feel like I am standing still & everyone is flying by me
I have had Dolly for a month, & She's gained a pound, & made me smile & I Love her SO much it is unbelieveable. And Maybe it is silly, but I also sort of feel like Dolly is another thing Rayma did for me
All in all though I am fairly happy. I need to loose some weight & I'm working on those bills....but it's all minor things. In the Big picture, my life..is good & I am happy. Tommorrow is even pay day.
I am also tired, & I want some Rice Pudding & a Cigarette (something else that still has to go), my insurance kicked in today which means I can go to the eye doctor, I want a L.A.M.B bag & a new pair of Chucks & I can't fucking wait until April!
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| Hello Dolly! |
[02 Jan 2005|06:36pm] |
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Chewing a bone in my lap is the new Love of my life, in the form of a tan & white chihuahua.
Dolly Lucille Jean Love <3
My computer sucks right now, so http://www.geocities.com/razzy_chihuahuas/af1110804.jpg that will have to do until I can post some of my own (keep in mind her ears are already sticking straight up now too *LOL*), but wait until you people really see her because she is cute as all HellO m, zkkkjzz <-- That was Dolly typing, she wanted to see the keyboard *LOL*
She came home New Years Eve....I had to start the New Year off right
With one of the happiest things to happen to me in a long time & I hope that a kickoff to 2005 like that will mean that this year is going to be full of good things. I'm optimistic
Happy New Year Everybody, May 2005 be the best for all of us yet.
<3
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| Santa Claus is Comin..To Town |
[28 Nov 2004|11:41pm] |
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My Word...Can you freakin Believe that it's already That time of year again?
Where does the time go?!?!
Thanksgiving was Great this year! We had it @ our house & My Gram just came here!! Waking up Thanksgiving morning (@ 8:30 because I apparently can't sleep in anymore >:0 ) & seeing her face made me so Happy! In lay of recent events I really needed to be around my Grandma, because I am 5 & still like snug in her lap & she is just my favorite human being in life! Uncle Ed & Eulaine came over too which also made me all happy, because Eulaine is such a light, she walks into a room & you are immediately happy, she is one fucking amazing woman! She even had the Straylight Run CD so I burned that & then I burned her GC because she was telling me how she Loves "World is Black" <3<3<3 I even made a Sweet Potato Casserole this year that came out delicious :) Later that night I went over to Michael's to see my B & my Casey Case. I couldn't think of a better way to round off my night than snuggling up with my God Puppy & my B on the couch!! Then I went & got Peanut because, well duh she always stays the weekend at my house *LOL* Holidays Not Excluded!
Did quite a bit of shopping, of course Me, Peanut, My Mom & Gram went out to Lakeside with everyother crazy nut on Friday! =) It was fun, I got a few really great presents & a few little ones for myself :x I have no willpower!! *LOL* I probably spent a GOOD 400$ this weekend, but I am just so excited that I am in the place to be able to buy everyone I Love presents that I just don't care!!
Saturday Me & Peanut took Gram to see "Christmas with the Kranks"..cute movie, & of course Gram ended up taking us because she insisted on paying, she is SUCH a Grandma <3<3<3<3 Then Me & Lex bought some Holiday Nog & Stoufers, Ambi Rose Came over & we just kicked it! I was supposed to go out with Marcie & some other people for T's birthday but I just really needed to be with my Gram more plus I was having sort of a rough day emotionally. We put up the tree & Me & Rayma used to do that together like every year when we were younger & there are certain ornaments that we put in the same spots & stuff & we were just obsessed with Christmas. Missing her was really just consuming me. I felt bad not seeing Tina again though, but when she comes home for Christmas, we will defenitely get coffee & then she can tell me all about UCLA, her Dr. Boyfriend & her 5 bedroom Cali home!! *LOL*
I really need to feel the warm & fuzzies this holiday season. Me & B decided to have a Christmas get together one night @ Michael's, we'll kick him out if he doesn't wanna stay! *LOL* We're gunna make dinner, have some drinks (AMARETTO SOURS :P), have all our friends together, do presents & just be thankful for eachother! With "Christmas in the Sky" ( I Love you Rayma Roo ) I want to be completely surrounded with my friends, as well as my family!!!
Well, I have fresh out of the dryer blankets waiting for me to crawl under, & Monday morning comes too fast!
I Hope Everyone Else had a Good Thanksgiving too & That The Christmas Spirit can find everyone this year.
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| I Just Wanna Liiiiiive |
[15 Nov 2004|11:11pm] |
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Dear Cutest Person in Life (aka Molly),
Not only did my face light up when I saw Molly Bean Flash on my phone, but when I flipped it up & Heard "I Just Wanna Live" blare out the other end I grinned from ear to ear :D That was so Precious & Thoughtful & Fun...I jigged around my room! You Made my Night! I Love you & you are my favorite!! Marry Me?
Love,
Daisy*
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| Why Not |
[07 Nov 2004|11:41pm] |
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I figured I'd fill this out for Lack for better things to do even though I should hardcore be in bed :)
THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. My Puppy Print Pajama Pants Lex gave me :)
2. Peach, lacey tank top
3. My Crystal Pinky Ring
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK
1. My Nametag for work
2. Ariel mousepad
3. Old Picturebook
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1. Write/Record a song I'm really in Love with & proud of
2. Fall Madly Madly Madly in Love
3. Be complete
THREE GOOD WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
1. Sweet
2. Ditzy
3. Soft
THREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY/NOT ON THE OUTSIDE
1. Over Analyzing
2. Too Wishy Washy
3. Extremely Picky
THREE PARTS OF MY HERITAGE
1. Polish
2. French
3. Irish
THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1. Eyes
2. Lips
3. Hair
THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1. Scoliosis
2. My Love Handles
3. My Complexion >:0
THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME
1. Just because I'm Smiling doesn't mean I am happy 24/7 365
2. When I'm really mad, I'm scary
3. I am not as confident as I appear to be
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1. Word
2. Absolutely Not
3. Brother
THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO
1. Hawaii
2. Paris
3. Australia
THREE NAMES THAT I GO BY (other than normal name)
1. Daisy
2. Prin
3. Pinky
THREE SCREEN NAMES I HAVE HAD
1. Starla008
2. GradeAGoddess
3. PopPrincessWanaB
THREE SONGS I JUST LISTENED TO...
1. The Starting Line - Bedroom Talk
2. Good Charlotte - Thank You Mom
3. Mindi Abair - Remember
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| So Fucking Lame |
[04 Nov 2004|05:42pm] |
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Just like people have different Political Views/Opinions & are allowed to, They can also Rant & Rave about them how ever they want. People shouldn't take so much fucking offence to it. If you don't like someones Rant, don't Fucking read it. No need to get all Nuts about it. I'm allowed to be pissed & express it How ever I choose, you aren't going to change my mind.
I also hate when people also bring up...Don't you care about the Vetrans..blah blah, I can't believe you'd be unproud to be an American. Hey....Me being pissed about Bush & what he stands for has Nothing to Fucking do with The Vetrans. I have plenty of Respect for the Vetrans in this Country & I know some Vetrans who aren't so pleased themselves. I hate when people pull that shit.
Maybe I will move to Canada, Thanks
So Fuck Off ;)
<3
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| She's So Lucky, She's a Star |
[01 Nov 2004|11:03pm] |
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I have grown up a significant amount in the course of about a week.
I have realized that every single day of life we all have is so precious, & I know it sounds so lame but it is the truest of true, & I am so grateful.
I have learned that in Life there is death & in death..there is Life.
I have learned that asking why gets you nowhere, somethings cannot be explained in a way anyone of us could ever understand, but I believe there is some kind of plan in everything, even if it takes years to see it in some kind of way.
I learned a long time ago that your heart can be completely broken, but you can still stand, & it's ok for you to still stand. I just keep relearning that.
I have learned that I am surrounded by people old & new that Love me & did/would hold my hand or hold me up when I didn't have the strength to stand up on my own, my family included.
I have learned that I have no reason not to be sure of myself. I think I know who I am, & I am starting to feel like I can be her 110% & feel good about that, & it feels so good. I'm starting to feel like I don't have to hide anymore
I have learned that compromising sometimes isn't so bad
I will always wear pink, & be gaudy. My clothes will probably never always match & I'll always be wearing outfits other people wouldn't really think of putting on. I'll always obsess over music & hang pictures on my walls of bands & my friends & The Little Mermaid. I'll always have a nickname for everyone & have a Baby Voice. I'll always melt when it comes to puppies & I'll always have my head in the clouds & my feet barely on the ground, & I will always look for the sun when it's raining..
I can just do all those things.......as a grown up :)
And that's Ok
I'm holding on to my Hope with Everything I have
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| Copies from GJ |
[25 Oct 2004|12:11pm] |
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(1): What celebrity do you associate me with?
(2): If I was a villian who would I be?
(3): What song reminds you of me?
(4): If I was a color what would I be?
(5): Describe me in THREE words.
(6): What movie reminds you of me?
(7): What BAND/ARTIST reminds you of me?
(8): If I was a super-hero who would I be?
(9): Would you ever punch me?
(10): Would you ever date me?
(11): Quick, what number am I?
Do it, I'll do it back <3
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